I open the west-facing door to head out of the yoga studio. The yellowy-orange setting sun jumps out at me with a delightful surprise. It is like the world is all a dark deep blue and this orange circular glow is hanging in the middle of all this depth. I yell a good-by to Debra and dash out to my car. The sky is noisy with thunder and sparkling with lightning but in this moment it isn’t raining. It has taken a reprieve from its stormy activity.
I leave the yard and as I drive home I watch the sun as it slowly descends, falling below the crust of the earth. When I first walked out it was sitting high in the sky. By the time I hit the highway, 3 minutes, it was already half way to the earth. By the time I turn onto my grid road, heading north, half of it is below the edge of the earth. In 10 minutes it has been slipping down the dark blue sky like quick sand. So quickly I am surprised and in awe of this beautiful event I get to witness.
I feel it is calling to me as I watch it from the corner of my eye heading north now. It is asking me to not forget it. To remember it. Maybe to even write about it. It isn’t sad that it is leaving us. It knows it is time and just wants me to soak up its energy, its sacredness.
Before my journey to joy I would have noticed the setting un. I may have even been in awe of it. I just wouldn’t have allowed myself to get as wrapped up in it and let it consume a whole 15 minutes of my life as well as write about it as soon as I walk in the door.
All this magnificence in nature is a true gift that we can watch and soak up every day, every season, every year. We ignore that the sun rises and sets every day. We don’t even ponder that we set our daily rhythms, something so basic in our lives, to this sacred event. I wish I had a camera with me. I would have loved to have posted a picture of it.
I was blessed to have an email float into my inbox regarding a nursing home in the city looking for volunteers. I have been wanting to write memoirs for seniors in this environment for about a year now but the opportunity hasn’t been coming easily. When this email popped up I thought, this is not something I can just pass by. I replied to the email. I received a response requesting a meeting and now I will hopefully start next week.
I am so excited to have this opportunity. I told my Emily during the year that when the time was right for her to go to Korea it would present itself, she would know, just as when the time is right for me to write memoirs for women, seniors, the terminally ill and host workshops, it will present itself.
And it has. Blessed syncrodestiny, coincidence, chance, miracle or whatever you want to call it. You are awesome.
The real kicker is that I would never have seen this email if Emily hadn’t been homeschooled this past year. Due to her being homeschooled I was put on an email list for activities and events going on in the community.
I can not wait to hear their stories and to have this experience!
Waiting to exhale … that deep breath as you settle into comfort and truth and love and yourself. When you get what you always wanted. I have felt so much motivation and action this week. I do believe that my energy and passion has come from the novel A Dangerous Mourning by Anne Perry which I completed reading on Tuesday. The book left me feeling exhilarated and confident – more sure of myself, who I am, and my goals. I love uncovering a mystery! This week has been one long inhale and now I must release.
The work I have done this week has cleared up my intention on blogging for I need one to keep up in this ratrace on the internet. I have always found blogging, and still do but maybe it is lessened a bit, a crazy, intense form of media. There is so much of it out there and so much pressure to get numbers and attract people. It is overwhelming. It is like everyone has their own newspapers and has to be at every street corner trying to sell, screaming above the person beside them.
Yet I have this desire to be of service. I wish to inspire people to be themselves. Perhaps find themselves first. Clear away all the anger and hurt and expectations. Shake the dusty blankets off all the agreeing and trying and settle into being you. I want people to notice the clues to being themselves – uncover their purpose – their destiny. The only way to help is to hear stories. I would love to help you uncover your unsolved mystery. Or perhaps hear how you uncovered it. Maybe you always new it and have never felt that lost feeling some of us have.
It is my intention for people to find the hidden clues of who they are. Just as I did in my book Sunlight. To live a life doing and being what you love. Like solving the mystery of Anne Perry’s novels you need some querying and questioning but also time for reflection.
Understanding the concept of life-purpose is my passion. I feel more comfortable and sure of it’s direction. It is my niche. It is my quest. Ahh … I can exhale.
What is something that you did, saw, read, experienced, whatever, that left you feeling exhilarated?