In February I was preparing for my fortieth birthday bash. The basement was a hot priority for me to organize. There was room for kids or adults to hang out but I wanted it to represent me. Clean it up and organize it to make it me.
“Many people get the urge to clean up when under pressure, such as just before an exam. But this urge doesn’t occur because they want to clean their room. It occurs because they need to put “something else” in order.”
Marie Kondo, The Life-Changing Magic of Tiding Up
To begin I thought I would move a futon, so I had to pull out the stuff from underneath it and behind it. The futon and the stuff was strategically placed in the middle of the room. Then I wanted to move a shelf. So all books and items needed to be moved off so I could move the shelf easier. Into the middle of the room it all went. And this continued until I was bombarded with STUFF. Stuff everywhere. I couldn’t walk. Absolutely overwhelmed!!!
It occurred to me that I could not just put this stuff back. This was way too much stuff.
“Visible mess helps distract us from the true source of the disorder.”
Marie Kondo, The Life-Changing Magic of Tiding Up
Where do I begin to fix this mess. I got some tea and sat and stared at it for a while. Maybe even an hour. Then, I figured piece by piece I was going to pull this together. One van load, and not even a full van load, was given away to Salvation Army. Maybe two garbage bags of garbage. There is still a long way to go but I need help to get through the rest of it. To clear my mind and narrow down what to get rid of.
“Putting things away creates the illusion that the clutter problem has been solved.”
Marie Kondo, The Life Changing Magic of Tiding Up
Now, months later the clutter has returned. Not like the mess I created. But there is clearly still too much stuff in my life. A new way of living is in order. Please follow me on my journey as I embark on purging and decluttering my home with the help of Marie Kondo and her book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up as well as the Waldorf/Anthroposophy philosophy on homemaking.
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Earlier this year I posted on Facebook that I was ready to get out into the workforce. Behind these words was a desire to make something my own, a homier home, a feeling of fulfillment and purpose each day. I wanted to wake up and feel that I had something to give the world (other than trying to be the most perfect mom and raise functioning children for society.) Feeling blessed to be able to stay at home with my kids I wanted more.
When I posted the desire to work on Facebook my original intention was to stay open to whatever came my way. But as friends started providing me with suggestions, I got all clammy and hid in a corner. I realized I wasn’t able to do that.
Floating in the background was Thirty-One Gifts. People new I loved the product. That I was spending a lot of money on it. Dreaming of it and how I could organize this area or another with the products. Or how I just loved the feel of a tote, its soft cotton. But I was not a sales person. I prefer to hide and let people find me. So this wasn’t for me. Yet I would go to bed thinking of Thirty-One.
Simultaneously I was taking a course called Foundations of Anthroposophy through the Rudolf Steiner Center in Toronto. One of my weekly homework assignments was to become someone else. Simply go to a store or park and watch someone’s body movements or habits. Then go to another store and act them out. This was a very nervous and anxious experience for me yet I did it every week with mixed results. But always I felt different. I felt like someone else. Taking on their walk made me create a story about them. Who they were. Sometimes I would feel more relaxed and joyful, easy going. Other times I felt confident. Each time a different emotion. My mentor taught me that all of these personality traits are in me. Until I can take them on as my own and make them mine I can walk differently, for example, to reach these traits.
“I am talking about a life driven more strongly by curiosity than by fear.”
Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert
Soon this idea started to mesh with the idea of selling Thirty-One products. Maybe I could be ‘that person’. I needed work on my image of a direct sales person and make it my own. So here I am. I decided to go for it on the 21st of July. Take on a new adventure. See if I can be another version of myself.
Soon I found that using and dreaming of Thirty-One products was inspiring me to write again. My Muse. Writing is my soul’s life. My soul, me, feels so excited to be useful again.
I had several intentions when I joined Thirty-One. They are:
- To learn more about business. I wish to be my own entrepreneur one day and could use some training
- To be financially independent. Even if I can just make $500 a month I will feel like I can be more creative and make my home a home; my life my life. This will make me feel successful
- To push myself out of my comfort zone. I have become such a quiet hermit. Sitting here eating to fulfil what is lacking in my life. I have put on 20 pounds in the last year
- I need more things on my plate. I need more than home. The desire to connect with others and hear their stories excites me.
Here I am beginning my journey. I am so glad you are on this path with me…Stepping out of my box.