- Point of view. I know I have talked about this before on my blog but I really think it is beneficial. I wrote this week about an episode of my running away when I was five. I wrote it first as an adult looking back and then instinctively I wondered what that five-year old girl was thinking. Then I just wrote. I wrote from my little voice in the past. I got way more out of the memory that way. I will share it with you tomorrow.
- There were times when I was writing that I wondered why have I kept this memory? What is it’s significance? What lesson does it hold or message? We need to reflect on our past to make sense of it. Tie memories together to see the bigger picture. I am still working on this in regards to this project. Some memories I can make peace with as I write them, finding an understanding. Other memories lay like loose pieces of a puzzle on the table. I haven’t found how they connect to the larger picture yet.
- I have noticed that I have almost no pictures of us the year we left my dad, our first year in Saskatoon. However, that year my memories are strong. I wonder why this is?
- Yesterday I laughed uncontrollably in the kitchen. My whole family was up there and I did something quirky as I am known to do. My eldest caught it and I broke out in laughter. You know, the kind of laughter where you can’t stop laughing even though you know the amount you are laughing really outweighs how funny the situation really is. I just laughed and laughed and laughed. Afterwards, as I moved away from my teenagers in the dining room to the kitchen I realized my belly had quite a workout. Then I heard the muffled sound of my daughters saying in astonishment, “We never see mom do that.” It hit me. I don’t laugh. I chuckle in bits and pieces but I actually think it has been years, five or more, since I have actually laughed so hard that I have wanted to pee my pants. I use to laugh all the time as a child. What happened? Life? Writing these memories out has made me so happy. These last two weeks have left me feeling a deep sense of joy and contentment. It feels so good to actually feel happy. I didn’t realize that I wasn’t feeling this way until now that I am. I don’t understand the cause exactly but I sure do hope it brings about more laughter! I want more deep belly laughs. My abs could use the workout.
PS: My sister owns Sunstone Creations. You will see her label on many of my pictures. I am so lucky to have a professional photographer in my back pocket … well, she lives on the other side of the country but what is space in our digital age.